kate’s blog

do you ever wonder why people want to compare others looks~perhaps even your own~to famous people all the time?

even if you don’t really look like them, there’s always one or two that people say you “remind” them of.  and they mean it as a compliment (well, most of the time. there is that story of a woman i know~who shall remain nameless~being told by an agent that she looks like a female lee harvey oswald…which i believe prompted her to eventually get a nose job…) but sometimes it’s very hard to take seriously, even as a generous compliment.

i get a few pretty consistently, and they are all very complimentary~ridiculously, almost…to the point that i don’t really agree that i look like them, actually.   because seriously, if it were true~if i did look like madeline stowe when my hair is long, or exuded audrey hepburn when i had bangs, or resembled isabella rosselini in various haircuts~shouldn’t i, too, be famous by now? or at least making a living as an actor?  don’t you ever wonder why the “right” people don’t see that you look like a star~if indeed all these kindly placed comparisons actually have any ounce of truth to them at all?  i mean, why can’t speilberg see my at my bar job and decide that i look like a gorgeous-leading-lady-movie-star? is it ungrateful of me to be annoyed that these comparisons are repeatedly made in a situation and by individuals who are clearly trying to get on my good side for some reason? i already pour a strong drink, guys. no need for unnecessary flattery.  if you want me to buy you a round, just tip well. i’m cheap & easy.

i know i know, what a thing to complain about. i must sound like a real snotty bitch. but i swear to god… it feels almost the same way it feels to have someone tell me i’m a really great server or bartender. thank you, but it is really NOT what i want to be GREAT at. and if iam great at the WRONG thing, does that mean i don’t have room to be great at the RIGHT thing? if there’s already a madeline, audrey, isabella, am i destined to be left out of the list of great leading ladies one day? can’t i either be able to use that as leverage or be recognized for my own unique stuff?

i ain’t mad, though i realize i’m sort of ranting here. this didn’t even happen to me in the past week or so. but it came to mind and i thought why not blog it. maybe someone else has something to say, or a need to hear someone ranting about it.

anyway, beyond all that, it is going to be a good week. i feel it. and who knows, maybe madeline will call and ask me to play her daughter in her new film.

so i didn’t have much to say for a while….

but i’m here now and will tell you what’s been going on, though most of you probably know, thanks to the wonder of facebook.

so in may i booked and shot Days of Our Lives, a possibly-recurring role as a psychiatrist, Dr. Battersley. that aired in mid-june, and i haven’t been called back yet (though apparently they have showed me in flashbacks), but i also know they take a 2 week break around july 4th, so i’m still hopeful they’ll bring me back in the near future.

then a few weeks later, my agent busted his ass to get me in for a large co-star role on a Nick show (bless him!) and i busted my ass prepping the 5 pages.  got to the audition and the sides and character were entirely different. i still read, read well~i’m glad i’m comfortable with cold reading~but i knew i was wrong for the role as they’d rewritten it.  too bad, cause i really felt i had the original nailed~with some help from a director friend, too.

today i went in to audition for one of my fave shows, House MD.  it would be pretty cool to book that show, and though i can’t talk about the scenario, i can say that my scene would be with hugh laurie, and that would be an awesome birthday present!  i start trying not to be too excited and hopeful… but then i think, “screw all that, this is part of the fun~the anticipation & exhilaration!”  i’m going to embrace it all!

meanwhile i shot a small role in a short film, an episode in a webseries (will post link when it’s done) in june, and i am feeling the power of “my” year moving into place!

here’s crossing fingers for HOUSE!!